Who will win?? Did you vote?

Jeff is out of town…again and today I was a bit nervous at the thought of taking both kids with me when I went to vote. Last Friday Jeff went and voted early at the courthouse and waited for THREE hours!! So I had that in the back of my mind as well as two kids and waiting for THREE hours. It turns out that we waited about 20 minute’s tops and it was no big deal… Did you remember to vote? I guess that is a dumb question. With all the media attention given to this who could forget that today was voting day.
Here is a funny story to share. When I put the kids to bed they always have the same 2 questions. “What did we do today?” and “What are we doing tomorrow.” So we recap the day’s activities and then talk about what they have to look forward to the following day.
Last night Joey and I talked about the campaign “race” and that we would watch the “race” today but tomorrow during the conversation. When we got home from voting I turned on the news and Joey was excited because he wanted to watch too. He then kept asking me when they were going to get to the “race”. I said the votes have not all been counted yet. We will know more tonight. He said “no the race” and then it hit me. He thought Obama and McCain would physically be going out and racing each other! He is TOO CUTE FOR WORDS. When I told him they would not be racing a running race. He then decided it was time to turn off the news he was done. By the way he predicted Obama would win a running race and I would have to agree.

Halloween Past & Present

Joey's Halloween costume from 2006 above

Gabrielle 2008! This was at her school. They dressed up and sang for the parents

2008

Gabrielle, Joey, & Jocelyn 2008

Joey 2008~ He is a clone trooper. We learned early on don't call that boy a storm trooper, there is a big difference?!?

Joey & Gabby 2007

Joey first time ever trick or treating

Gabby's first Halloween~ She was 4 months in this picture. Makes me miss babies!!

Thought it would be fun to show some pictures of Halloween past and Halloween present. If you get a chance after viewing my kids Halloween costumes this year, then go check out http://our-munchkins.blogspot.com/ to view what Laura's kids were for Halloween. Too funny!

Do you know what day it is?

Looks like I need to change a number in my blog profile from 33 to 34.


Happy Birthday to me.

Saturday 10-18 part II! Fall fun

After going to Joey’s new school we went home for some lunch and meet up with our neighbors (Keith, Jen, and Jocelyn). We went together to a farm. Every year I have the same thoughts when it turns fall. That is that I wish there was a place that we could take the kids that would have numerous activities for children and families to enjoy the leaves, pick pumpkins, go for a hay ride etc. One night I spent a lot of time on the computer trying to find a place that would be different and fun. Up until now our yearly outing would be to go to a place that is decorated a bit and pick out a pumpkin. As far as fun things to do that are fall/ Halloween and family oriented we have never found the perfect place. Anyways I was talking to my neighbor and she told me about a place that she has been to and a place that she really enjoyed. I was really excited. The place that we went to was about 40-45 minutes from our home. Our neighbors have a little girl that as it turns out is 3 days older than Gabrielle. They have become best buddies. It was a wonderful time!! This place was amazing! The leaves and colors on the trees were gorgeous, not only was there face painting, pony rides, tee-pees, slides, horse drawn carriage rides, tractor rides, apple picking, pumpkin picking, trails in the woods, a huge place for kids to run around that was filled with hay that you could pick up and have little “snow ball fights” with, walking on stilts, slides, play areas, and a corn maze X2!!! I am probably missing some things too. It was well worth the drive and a blast. I urge you to look up farms in your area to see if they do fun things. We will definitely be going back yearly. Before I show all the pictures I have to tell you all this too….

Some of you may be surprised to know that this city girl has never been this close to corn or in a corn maze. Look at my face when viewing the corn!! Jeff thought it was hilarious. It was also a chilly day! We came home and I did it... I turned the heat on! That time of year again!! :(

Part I of our Saturday

Today we all got up early for a day filled with family, friends, and fun. We started our day by going to an orientation for Valley Christian Academy. (http://www.valleychristian.com/) This is the school we have chosen for our kids to start attending for Kindergarten and beyond. Jeff and I both went to public schools. We currently live not even five minutes from the city I grew up in. When we bought this house and started having kids we started to become concerned with the city schools for the district and city we live in. Jeff really expressed a great desire for our kids to go to a Christian private school. I have to say that after going to the open house today I am totally sold on this school. I am so excited for Joey to start attending this school next year.
Here were some things that I found to be very impressive. One of the speakers this morning was the principal of the school. I found that to be totally neat. I remember growing up and thinking about our principal. First of all she looked mean; secondly it was put into your head that her office was a place that if you went there you were in big time trouble, third was always the fear of the “paddle”. In contrast today we saw and met one of the kindest and gentlest people I have ever met. They want kids to go to her office. A teacher may send a child to her office if for example they get an A on a paper, they do a great job reading aloud, or they spell their name correctly. Then when they go to her office they can get stamps, stickers, or as she says “do a happy dance” together. She then goes on to say if there is a situation where for example a child hit another child, they calmly talk about it. They discuss consequences and how to treat others. Love that. So she is not a person to be feared at all, but a person to confide in and to become friends with. You can tell by the way she talks that she loves her job and the kids. She then went on to talk about how all kids learn differently. If they find that a child is learning on a different level there is no holding that child back or the other kids that are excelling on a skill back. They simply do other things and try different ways to teach the child that learns different or is falling behind in a loving manner. I LOVE that too.
Other bonuses:
They have a computer lab!!! The kids in kindergarten yes, kindergarten know how to save files, learn Microsoft, and excel, can make spread sheets by the time they go to second grade.
They have music where they learn notes and have the opportunity to learn instruments
By the time the kids enter first grade they can READ!!! Some kids in this class right now are on a fourth grade reading level!!
I could go on and on. Jeff and I had three other families come up to us and out of nowhere tell us how much they love the school and how the school has changed their lives and their kids lives.

Update on our kids. Joey is doing really well at school this year. (Preschool) He is still occasionally having speech issues. I talked with the lady at VCA today and the day that they do kindergarten registration the lady that does it is a speech therapist. If they pick up problems in that first meeting they flag it and he can get individual attention at VCA
Gabby is amazing! This child is very intelligent. (They both are Joey just does not share as much about what he knows unless he is quizzed) She comes home and is singing CONSTANTLY even when she should be eating. I think I may have a singer on our hands. She loves preschool and after watching her today I think she is ready for kindergarten too… 2 more years for her. She had a ball today at the new school.
As a parent I am just very excited for our kids and the decision that we made to send them both to VCA.

Saturday part 2 to follow tomorrow I promise! I promise to visit all of your blogs tomorrow also.

Where have you been?

I have been such a BAD blogger and I apologize to you that I have not been leaving comments on your blogs. I promise to be back soon. You all know that both kids are in school now. I have been trying to now figure out what to do with my time and have been working on my resume. I have sent out my resume (it is now via e-mail) to various hospitals for RN jobs. One hospital that I applied to four of the different job positions e-mailed me back stating “after careful consideration they gave the job to someone else”. In my resume I was upfront and stated that for the past 5 years I have been a stay at home mom. If they put two and two together they know that I quit my last job as a RN 5 years ago when I was pregnant with Joey and had all the complications to be a stay at home mom. I guess I don’t blame the people in charge for wanting to go with a RN right out of school and one that has no ties to a family and kids. I still have two hospitals that I applied for. It has been over two weeks now and have not heard from them.
On the other side all my readers and nonfamily members may be surprised to know that I am an eBay powerseller. I do a lot of research and know what is hot and go find those things to list on eBay. Last year around Christmas time I made a pretty nice profit that was helpful for Christmas and when Jeff and I went to Hawaii. This can be like a job and can be time consuming at the same time once things are listed and if you are able to sell the same thing multiple times then there is not a lot of work involved. Like everything in life it has its good points and bad. I am good at selling on eBay and I do really enjoy it. I enjoy the high of going into a store and being on the hunt for something and then finding it. I also love to send people mail. One of my favorite things to do is get mail. I ship fast. If you buy something from me it will be out of my house on 12 hours maybe before. I have even slept out for things I am on the hunt for. Last year I spent many nights outside for the Nintendo Wii. Yes, I am one of those crazy people you see on television. It really can be fun though. Being around other adults. Last year I met a couple that was married and also selling for extra money for Christmas. This guy was a genius and knew how to hook up some sort of heater to his van. So I would talk to him and know where he would be for free heat. If you are wondering I probably sold over 50 wii systems last year. As for the kids they would be with Jeff. Sometimes Jeff would also go and the kids would stay with my parents that way we would get two. The wii was pulling in a profit of $ 100.00 a Wii last year.
So again I have been busy buying, selling, researching, and listing. This is what I do and something I enjoy. There are many people who would say I hoard toys. To that I just say this; I stay at home with my kids. One family income with the way the economy is today and the life style we live is not enough. This is something I can do to help provide for my family as well as be home with the kids, pick my kids up from school, and go to sporting events. Either way I look at this as a job. I also know that if I did get hired tomorrow for a RN job that I would see my kids a lot less. I am still looking for a RN job, just not as aggressive as before. I want to sell again through Christmas and then try to get a RN job in January.

I have a little widget in my sidebar. My eBay seller name is Bluecakes22. Please remember me if there is anything you are looking for.

9-11-2001

My thoughts and prayers are with all those that lost loved ones 7 years ago today.

9-11-01 changed many people and their lives. Mine included.

My heart goes out to all of those who will be reliving this anniversary of a loved ones death.

Days like today are never easy.

I will never forget this day and how brave so many American men and women were on this day 7 years ago.

Thank you to all of our troops for our freedom.

God bless all of you.

Wordful Wednesday

Angie began Wordful Wednesday and today I am going to give it a try.


We were getting the kids ready for bed. We sent them upstairs to brush their teeth and put on their pajamas while Jeff and I finished up a few things. We then heard the water to the bath tub starting. Neither of us said it was a bath night, but one of our children had different plans. I began and Jeff helped looking for bunny before going upstairs to get the kids to bed. I could not find bunny and I was worried about the kid in the tub. So I went upstairs to ask where bunny might be hiding and I pulled back the shower curtain and saw this. I then sent Jeff up with the camera.

What would you have done?

Sometimes life situations present themselves and I for one don’t know how to handle them. So I was wondering what you would have done had this been you.
I was at the grocery store looking at all the fattening, delicious, yummy desserts trying to pick out the right one for Jeff’s birthday. I could not decide if I should do a traditional cake or something a bit fancier like the turtle cheesecake, or peanut butter cup cake, or Oreo cake. I was deciding what cake to purchase when the lady behind the counter began sneezing. One sneeze after another until she sneezed into her hands FIVE times. I waited to see if she was going to go WASH her hands or put on clean gloves or sanitize herself in any way. She chose not to. I was sick to my stomach at the thought of her touching anything that I would be putting into my mouth and my family as well. So I politely told her I changed my mind. I walked over to the premade cakes and watched as the next person walked up to the bakery and made a purchase. I know that this lady did not wash her hands before helping this next customer. I don’t want to be the germ police, but isn’t this common sense???

So should I have asked her to wash her hands and then put on gloves? Would you have walked away too? What would you have done?

Week in review

This past week has been a crazy one!! Last Friday we left our home and went and spent the weekend up in Madison, Ohio with Jeff’s dad. The reason for our stay was for Jeff’s 20th year class reunion. I admit that I was not looking forward to the reunion. I tend to get anxious, quiet, and nervous in situations where I know no one and am forced into large crowds of people. Times like this I wish I was a drinker, but alcohol and I do not mix. We went to the high school football game on Friday night and then to a bar that was popular. I met a lot of Jeff’s old friends from high school. The following day we took the kids to Lake Erie and they played in the sand and we watched the water. That evening was the big reunion at Quail Hollow. It ended up being a nice
evening.
I want to say “Thank you” to Papa John and his girlfriend Dee Dee for taking such good care of our kiddos. The weekend ended with a family reunion at one of Jeff’s Aunt’s homes. It was a nice time. The kids really enjoyed themselves. We then went home on Monday. The kids were back to school on Wednesday and later Wednesday evening we went to the airport to pick up Jeff’s mom. “Oma” will be staying with us for a few weeks. It is always fun when she is here. The kids love her and love spending time with her. Wednesday and Thursday evening have been devoted to the Republicans… I will leave that alone. I think we all know where I stand now.

Tonight we celebrated Jeff’s 38th birthday. He really had his Birthday on August 31st, but because we have been so busy we celebrated it again tonight.

I have been blessed with a fabulous husband. He is truly a gift from God. He and I have been through many tough times in our 6 years of marriage. I think that together we can weather any storm. The loss of our daughters was very difficult for me and also for Jeff, but it also in ways put some distance between us. Grieving is a difficult thing. Especially when there is also a baby (Joey) that needed to be taken care of. Being a stay at home mom has made finances hard at times, but again through talking, loving, and good communication we have made it. We always say “you are stuck with me”, there will be no divorce. Not only is Jeff an amazing caring, kind, hardworking, dedicated husband he is also an out of this world dad. Hearing the excitement of my kids when he walks in the door at night is one of the greatest sounds. He loves our children, provides for them, cares for them, teaches them, disciplines them, and most of all is very dedicated and hands on with them.
I love you Jeff and we wish you a very Happy Birthday!!!

Palin

Did you watch her tonight?? She was impressive! She could give Mrs. Clinton a run for her money. I am so GLAD that she is on my side. LOVE her... LOVE her!!! I promise I will stop with the politics.

It has taken me a few weeks to get a chance to reply to these questions. I know that you have all been waiting on pins and needles for the answers. So here are my responses.
Mamageek asked “Do you think you will be blogging 5 years from now”? She also asked “what actor makes you swoon”? Before I post the answers let me say something about Mamageek. Go to her site!! Yes, that is an order. She has the most amazing pictures that she takes with her camera! Every time I go to her site I am speechless, in awe, and ask how does she do that? You will NOT be disappointed. I only wish she would (A) teach me her tricks, (B) come to Ohio and do a photo shoot of my family, and (C) sell her work because I think she could make some serious cash.

The first answer is Yes, I think and I hope to be blogging in 5 years from now. I like blogging for a variety of reasons. I like “talking” to others and “hearing” about others lives with children. When I read that others have hard days with their children it makes me feel not so alone in this big world. I also like to know that things my kids are doing are typical and age appropriate behavior. Another reason that I enjoy blogging is because it is an easy way to stay connected with friends and family. My mother-in-law lives in Florida, so I like knowing that she can jump on her computer and see updated photos of her grandkids. My parents travel a lot so it is easy for them to stay connected as well. ** Although both my parents and mil need to start leaving comments** {HINT. HINT} The last reason I like blogging is for my kids. This is a great journal of their lives growing up.

This picture says it all...



Jamie over at “The Heiner Clan” is the mom to four. Bless her is all I can say. She is one busy mommy. She has adorable twin daughters and two handsome little boys. She asked the following questions “So you’ll be working as an RN, I assume”. “How long did you do that before”? “Do you like it”? “What is the best money you’ve ever spent”?

Yes, you assumed right. I would be going back into nursing. I worked in Seattle for about 5 months on a Trauma/ Surgery floor before we moved back to Ohio. I then worked in Ohio in the MICU/SICU for over a year before having complications with Joey’s pregnancy which led to bed rest and then becoming a stay at home mom full time. When you put the amount of “experience” together that I have as a RN it is not much. I always wanted to be a mom and I achieved that. The next most important thing to me was that I was home with my kids. I did not want to miss anything and we are fortunate enough that I was able to stay home for the past 5+ years.
Yes, I do like nursing. I have had days over the past five years where I have missed it. I also though am very nervous and anxious at the thought of going back. In nursing school I was either in class, at clinical, or home studying nursing. I feel like I have forgotten everything I have learned. I also have lost a lot of skill. Let’s face it I have not started an IV or done a blood draw in over 5+ years. That frightens me. I also DO NOT take the responsibility of my patient’s life for granted. I am in charge of keeping them safe and helping them recover. The last thing I would want is to cause harm to another. I wish there was a refresher course. Or it may be like getting on a bike after not riding one for 10 years and just knowing how to peddle the bike and keep it from falling over. We will see.

As for the best money we have ever spent. This has been a tough question for me. I think I would have to say our home, but at the moment we are paying the bank monthly and do not own the house yet. I LOVE our home even though Jeff and I have about 5 things we would change about it. For me it is the home that I conceived four children, we brought two of those children here to raise, this is Jeff and my first house, and it holds all of our memories minus Seattle and Kent from the past 8 years we have been together. We were also the first people to ever be in this home and make this new empty house a HOME that has character, love, blessings, and family.

Look for more answers to these great questions in the coming days.

I have no words...

Please take a moment and view the video I came across.

Only tears of joy

I could say a lot about this post. For example,
Two lunches- PACKED
Two kids dressed for school- DONE
Two kids at preschool- ACCOMPLISHED
One mom at home with a quiet house- PRICELESS

I could tell you a story of a mom being home crying because both of her kiddos are at school and there are no babies in my house to care for, but I would be lying. The truth is I am overjoyed. There are no tears of sorrow only tears of joy. I am so excited for Gabrielle today. She has been so stoked for her first day of school. She wants to be a big girl and be like her brother. She has felt a bit left out because she has not been old enough or potty trained to go to school in the past. She jumped out of bed this morning with a smile on her face. We had to wake her up (Joey, Jeff, and myself) all went into her room to arouse the sleeping beauty and tell her she had to get up for her first day of school. She was happy to pee on the potty, get dressed, and get her HAIR done (believe it or not) for her first day. In typical Gabrielle fashion she even gave us her signature smile/ funny faces for the camera.

Joey is not pictured. He was unwilling to smile, stand with his lunch box, or even look at the camera. This is his last year of preschool. Next year will be his big year.

As for mom… I am going to enjoy the day. I have a whole list of things I could do like laundry, cleaning, organizing, work on my resume, look for a job, but first I think I may go back to bed.

**Notice- bunny got to go to school too. You may also notice that bunny got into some nail polish. When will bunny learn??

It is finally done!!!! Bathroom remodel completion!

We went from a Smurf blue color to a calming Desert color. Remember Angie was kind enough and gave me the name of a paint color called "Gobi Desert"? It turns out that this color went very well with the wallpaper in the foyer, it matched the towels I chose, and Jeff liked it!!! Thanks so much Angie. This project took us a little over a month to complete, but it is now DONE!! I am thrilled.

What would you change???

So I have been thinking lately about some aspects of my body and things that I would change if I could. Some of these things I do have control over, like my weight and the extra 10-15 pounds I am carrying around on me from pregnancies, but some of these things I am unable to change, because well that is just the way I was made. So I have a list of the things that I wish I could change. The number one thing on the list is what I wish I could change most.

5. My weight. I would love to be back into the size I was the day that I got married. I would love to not feel so self conscious about my waist and the extra skin that hangs there and most of all not hear my kids say “mommy your belly is big.” This definitely needs to be worked on. Maybe when the kids are both at school I can get back to the gym.

4. My nose. I feel like when viewed as a side profile my nose is rather large. Once I was walking up stairs during late night hours and I got a glimpse of some sort of shadow that actually scared me. Then I realized it was my nose of all things.

3. I was born with very stubby fingers. I do not have long slender fingers by any means. This proved to be difficult when picking out engagement rings.

2. Hair!!! Not only do I have very thick hair so thick in fact that it is not uncommon for me to be at the hair dresser for three hours for high lights and cuts, but I also have hair in not so feminine places that drives me crazy. Take for example the hair on my upper lip that I have to have waxed off or the hair on my chin. Speaking of my chin right under my chin is a mole and out of this mole grows a thick single hair! I pluck this little sucker at least once every week to week and a half. I have often wondered what will happen when I am old. Will my kids know to come pluck this hair for me? Sometimes I think that I should let it grow and see how long I can get it. If I do that I may be able to use it to wash grime out of pans as opposed to using a bristle pad.

And the number one thing I wish I could change


1. My feet!!! Remember my stubby fingers, well my feel need to come in a category called WIDE LOAD BELOW. This is very hard for a girl that LOVES shoes!!!! Talk about impossible when finding shoes to go with the perfect outfit. Even if you don’t have wide feet sometime when you are out ask if they have that shoe in a wide. Or where the wide shoes are. The limited shoes they show you that do come in wide I promise will be butt ugly. Seriously though this is hard. As I said before I LOVE shoes!!!

So go ahead tell me what you wish you could change about yourself. Oh by the way, you are all welcome in that I did not show you pictures of these not so flattering things about myself.

Bunny

Dear Bunny~
You joined our family in the spring of 2005 and were an Easter gift given to Gabrielle by her Papa John and Dee. Out of all the things Gabby has you have always been her favorite. I know that she loves you dearly. She kisses you, cries to you and for you, takes you to the potty, takes you on vacations and sleepovers, gives you timeouts, sometimes yells at you, plays tea with you, takes you on the swing, takes you for bike rides etc. Basically bunny where Gabby is you are not far from her reach. It has been this way for quite some time. I appreciate your loyalty to her. The problem I am having Bunny, is that I am a busy mom. When Mr. Jeff travels I am even busier. I have my eyes on two kids and adding you to the mix makes it much harder for me. I would really like if you could be like a toy from the movie Toy Story and whenever you are hidden come out to where I can find you easily. Last night I spent a good 20 minutes not only listening to Gabrielle cry and scream for you, but also searching the house from top to bottom looking for you. I was glad that after the 20 minutes was up I did finally find you. You are really good at hiding and at keeping quiet while you hide. Is it okay if I put some sort of alarm on you? I really don’t like playing hide-n-go-seek at bedtime. Oh by the way, the time I found you at bedtime in the refrigerator drawer with the lettuce... that was a good one! Thanks for the chuckle. I hope we can work on the hiding Bunny and thanks again for keeping Gabby secure and safe.
Much Love,
Gabby’s mommy

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In other news: I will be working on all the great questions soon. Thanks to all who left questions. The bathroom is almost done! It has taken a bit longer than expected, but as I eluded to before most projects in my home occur this way. Pictures will be coming soon. Next Wed. is a big day. Gabrielle starts her first day of preschool.

60th post... You ask, I'll answer

I haven’t posted in a while. I still have extra kiddos in my house. With teenage and preteen girls that like computer time, I have not been online much. There is a lot going on in my life right now. Trying to figure out what is going to happen in the next chapters of my life. My youngest will start preschool so I am strongly considering going back to work. This is stressful to me as well as the thoughts of no more babies. I am in a bit of a funk and also facing some depression. My son’s birthday party added extra stress and conflict to my already busy life. As I type this I am currently not speaking to some of my family. And they are also not speaking to me. (dad, sister) This is a post for another time.

I want to get back into the grove of blogging. So I decided to open it up to my readers. This is your chance to ask me any question… Within reason. You ask I’ll answer! I will be back online more often next week and if I have not commented on you blog for a while I apologize. So get busy and ask away.

Happy Birthday Courtney! I love you!!!

If you're alone, I'll be your shadow. If you want to cry, I'll be your shoulder. If you want a hug, I'll be your pillow. If you need to be happy, I'll be your smile. But anytime you need a friend, I'll just be me.

Today is my best friend’s (Courtney) birthday!! Recently I had a post about her. In July her daddy passed away. Today is going to be a hard day for her without her dad. This will be her first birthday she celebrates without him. I wish I had the words to give her comfort.
She and I have been through many things together. Of course we have sayings or old memories that make us laugh. We can look at old hair styles and clothes we used to wear and roll our eyes with smiles on our faces and say “what were we thinking”? We have traveled together. We have been to Boston, New York City, Arizona, Florida, Carolinas, and even Niagara Falls.
Not only is she my best friend she is part of my family. She understands me, she can fill my husband in on things because she knew me before he ever did, she and I can pick up a conversation after not talking for a few weeks or days.
A few favorite memories:
· Riding our bikes/ big wheels down Berkshire Road
· Trading school clothes in the middle of the road
· Stickers (we loved the smelly ones)
· We tried Morse code with our bedroom lights
· Photography class
· Chet Feldman/ Kevin Kovach
· The Shoney’s pie
· Being the Shoney’s bear
· McDonald’s
· Going to Wendy’s, Little Caesars after school
· First time drinking in my parent’s home… We were sick
· “You go over the bridge”
· Trying to go to a party… baked potatoes
· The space shuttle in 6th grade
· Grateful Dead concert
· Sleeping out for Whitney Houston tickets
· NEW KIDS ON THE BLOCK (Will we do the reunion concert?)

· Learning about sex together (YUCK)
· First cars
· Leaving Sean’s house and the almost accident on Route 8
· Football games, basket ball games, high school memories
· Passing notes
I know there are many. Many. Many more, she could add to this.

I hope everyone has a best friend and that today you pick up the phone and call her/him.
I am not the best writer so I have a few quotes/poems in this post to best describe our friendship. I also have tons of photos. I hope they make you smile.





You're...My Friend,my companion,through good times and badmy friend, my buddy,through happy and sad,beside me you stand,beside me you walk,you're there to listen,you're there to talk,with happiness, with smiles,with pain and tears,I know you'll be there,throughout the years!